Beyond Zero and One (Andrew Smart) / quote 25 of 171
Recalling an LSD trip fifteen years later
I began to wonder if I would ever return to reality, but the voice in the back of my head reminded me again, “LSD is a drug… it will wear off.” The incredible thing about these experiences is that even now, fifteen years later, I can still recall them vividly as if they had really happened. To me, they did actually happen—in my brain. The pseudo-hallucinations and visions I had were real physical events occurring in my brain in a combined response to the world, my perceptions, my internal thoughts, my feelings, and the drug. And in the moment there was a certain reality to these visions and sounds even though I retained at all times the awareness that what I was seeing did not exist in the world outside my brain. I became increasingly confused, which made me anxious. My body seemed to be cycling through every possible emotion at a rapid pace. I thought of my mother and missed her intensely, and then began to fear that I might forget what she looks like. The walls and ceiling appeared soft and started to close in on me.