The Acid Diaries (Christopher Gray) / quote 57 of 125
Learning to read the story of my own life
It was during this time of abstention from acid that I first saw the drug was having an ongoing effect. Had I not been living such a placid and outwardly uneventful life, I doubt that I would have noticed, but the personal, biographical material, which I believed those last trips had put an end to, was on the contrary continuing to flow. If anything it had quickened. Childhood and boyhood memories continued to surface in the same abrupt manner, but I could understand the story they were telling now. A sort of spontaneous self-analysis was taking place. Piece by piece I put together the truth that I had been an unwanted child, one who had responded by overcompensating wildly. I had set myself impossibly high goals, because (and I’m sure this is all too typical a story) the only way I had been able to cope was by believing I was special. Suddenly it was as though I was learning to read the story of my own life.