The Acid Diaries (Christopher Gray) / quote 38 of 125
God, the world and the self
Abruptly, almost with a pop, my mind cleared and I came back to myself. I was utterly calm and centered . . . ominously so. I felt I had acceded to a higher type of thought, something still in the process of evolution, and was thinking with a speed and urgency previously only known in moments of great physical danger. Back and forth I paced in the little living room, with tigerish theological intensity. Essentially three factors—God, the world, and the self—confront us. What we have to do is discover the true relation between them. Can the three coincide? The power with which I could concentrate began to alarm me. The acid was climaxing in huge, slow pulses, propelling me irresistibly into greater and greater intensity. Was direct revelation at hand? I remembered the Bible: “It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.” Too late I recognized the symptoms, the sense that everything was decelerating, that objects were becoming heavier and increasingly dense. The pressure in the little room was building up alarmingly. Before I knew it I was overcome by apocalyptic terror once again. The whole was about to manifest in the part, and the universe be torn apart.